When we’re told to observe something in ourselves, our social mind immediately translates it as ‘I should not do this’. We think it means – ‘Observe when you’re doing this and curb the behaviour pattern.’
Now we get into a struggle. The internal dialogue goes like this – ‘I’m trying to do this but at times I slip up. I can’t control it. I see now that I’m a slave to this behaviour but I’ll work harder and try not to do this.’
The word was ‘observation’ and what you heard and began to do was ‘adherence’ to an already established social code in your system. So everywhere you go, you hear the same thing. And everywhere you go, you make the same promise – ‘I’ll become better.’ We end up living in the same darkness.
Observation means examination. But the moment we hear the word ‘examination’, we think about getting marks. That we’re being examined by somebody else. And when we hear the word ‘observation’, we take it as adherence, to not do that particular behaviour again.
Every word is already loaded. So there is never any real observation or examination of the system, ever. And we continue to live in darkness.
We have to let the light in.